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Friday, September 26, 2008

i am not important enough

actually i know all of them actually have valid reasons, but i guess it's just a bit too much for me to take. just had to complain a bit. =x

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as i've said, i was very busy for the past, maybe 5 or 6 weeks. now that it's over, there's really not much point to tell you what i've been busy for.

but my reason for not saying it earlier is because i was flying to sydney to surprise my sister at her graduation last thursday. and so obviously i cant say it out here that i'm going to sydney, cause she reads my blog.

went there for only a day anyway. the actual time i spent in sydney was less than 24 hours.

anyway, september is a cursed month.

see, i wanted to make sure people were 'booked' by me and so i asked them out like two weeks in advance. and two weeks ago, everyone was like 'ok! sure! can!' when i asked. but then you know what, after that, people started coming back to me, telling me they can't make it anymore cause they have SOMETHING ELSE on.

hey? i asked you all out first eh? why should you be able to have something else to do.

just for today (friday) itself, three different people fly me aeroplane/kite. let's see the reasons why.

two of them were going for an overnite road trip and couldnt book a room except thursday, meaning they will be back on friday night, but might be too tired to go out anymore. but i still think they will show up later because they at least know how to 做人. but the fact remains that they forgot about our K session on friday when they were making their booking.

another one leh, few days after she told me she could join us for the K session, she told me she has a birthday party to attend. the party was not from 8pm to 4am, as the K session is, but i think after realising the price to sing K is about twice as what she expected it to be, she decided not to come.

the last one, i asked her out last week. i always said we'll discuss about friday on thursday because she was busy with her assignment, which was due on thursday. then come thursday, when i smsed her to ask her about today at around 8pm, she replied at almost 10pm, telling me she has to meet some other person, and that she's very sorry and will treat me to something in the future.

but hey, if all the people who promised to treat me something treat me all at once, i can go out for two days and not pay for my meals.

that's just for friday 28th september.

last thursday, when i went to sydney, a guy was suppose to pick me up from the airport and bring me around sydney for the day. and even though he did bring me to the sydney fish market and the casino over there, he too called me the day before and asked me to make my way to his house cause he stayed late in school to do an assignment and wouldn't be able to wake up early enough to go to the airport to fetch me.

and there's this big group of people that i kept on asking them out for another K session. they organised a lot of outings, and most of the time i will only be like the last to be informed. all those other outings i dont really care, it's ok to ask me late cause i wouldnt feel anything if i cant make it. but hey, since one month ago i asked you all when can we go to sing K. i thought, at least, if they were to organise a K session, they would make sure that i'm free because i seem so keen on it. but guess what, i only recieved a sms yesterday night at 11pm to ask me if i'm free to go for K, which has already been decided on.

i think i haven't made it clear enough.

see, when a group of people organise some form of activities, a few of them will come together and decide on a date in which they, and a few other people, are free. once this few people are all free on certain days, they then ask the other less important people if they can make it on those few days, and after people reply, they then see which day most people are free and decide on the date. ONLY THEN, they ask all the least important people if they can make it, and if they can't, it doesnt matter, cause they are not important.

and in the case, i'm the least important people. i was only informed yesterday, but i think they had already decided on tuesday to sing K tonight.

and also in the month of september, i was suppose to meet up with another person to talk about something over a meal. this thing has already been postponed twice i think. if this meeting doesnt happen next week, there's no more need for it to take place anymore.

bad things about september 2008 can even date all the way back to before i even came back to melbourne at the start of year. if you forgot, think about why i'm in melbourne during this holiday, instead of being back in malaysia to watch the singapore grand prix this weekend.

i think the reason why all of these happen is very simple:

i'm simply not important enough.