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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

It's 0447

Funny that I'm still online now instead of sleeping and getting my body clock normal so that I won't have problems waking up next week for my exams.

EXAMS?!?!???

Two papers up next week. Physics on Tuesday and Maths A on the next day, how nice is it, two science (yea, they say Math A is a Science subject, wtf?) subjects back to back, I don't really know how I'm gonna study for it even though I'm already studying for it.

So last week I was basically living at the library until past 12am for most of the weekdays, except Tuesday when I went to watch Da Vinci's Code, and Thursday which I was alone and so I left at aorund 8pm and Friday when I watched X Men III. Actually I only went to the library three times, and stayed there until the next morning on two occasions, hehe.

Anyway, weekly planner for this week!

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday:
STUDY, (weekdays at library).

I was calculating how much I need for the final paper in order for me to get H1 (the best grade, which is 80 and above) because I got scared of complex numbers. Luckily there's 180 marks for the Maths final paper and I only need 120 to secure my H1 (only required 112 actually). But for Physics... it's still reasonably easy but... there's always this uncertainty. Who knows this year will be like my Trinity years when I always have to go to the toilet to let out some solids, sometimes semi-solids, during my physics papers. Last year finals I think I went during Maths 1 paper too, and I rushed through EAP too so that I can go to the toilet and do that thing without being followed by an invigilator (and cause that subject is useless, or that exam was pretty much a waste of time cause I went into the exam having passed that subject, and I only need to pass that subject).

Anyway was just back from supper after studying. Actually reached home at around 0330 but then I on my lappy and did the usual stuffs, and then blog at my other blog and then here, yea, blogging is not considered 'the usual stuffs' anymore.

Just in case you're wondering, the usual stuffs I was referring to is reading other people's blogs.

Shall get a quick shower and then go to bed. I say 'go to bed' because I'm just really going to the bed. I don't usually fall asleep until it's been over an hour with me lying on the bed. It's werid, and irritating, especially when you're desperate for some sleep, but when you lie onto the bed and close your eyes, you start to think about random things uncontrollably and before you know, you feel awake already. Then those random things you were thinking gets more random until you reach a point (and that's normally after an hour for me) it gets so random that... that... it's just very random.

Ok, I'm so random, this is a random post by the way...

But that's actually the process I go through everyday before I actually sleep. Is that a psychological illness or what? I thought of going to a psychiatrist actually but then again whenever I think of doing that I think to myself, maybe I can cure this on my own. And of course to be able to go to a psychiatrist I have to tell my parents about it so that they will bring me there. But again, they'll probably tell me it's just a minor problem that can be cured easily.

But again, I've been experiencing this for almost two years already I think. Definitely since I came Australia but I think it actually started before I came... I can't really remember.

Moses, it's 0507 already, and I haven't bathe and I still need that one hour to get myself to sleep. Too bad I have to end this so abruptly.