Early morning
Yea, it seems like I really do enjoy quietness sometimes too. Time to be alone, doing nothing, imaging myself in a life that I aspire to be living in, which really is just called day-dreaming.
The only bad thing about the morning quietness is that I didn't wake up early to enjoy it. I stayed up all through the night. It's already almost 7am.
The period of time between 5 to 7am is the best time for me to be alone. Friends from Melbourne, Malaysia and Singapore are all asleep and I have no distractions from MSN or phone calls asking me out for meals or whatsoever.
(starting to get random)
Actually I'm very lost about what I want in life too. It's times like now that I really hate studying, not like I like it any bit in the first place. But during exams I really hate studying to the core. Heard something like this from Evan Rachel Wood when she was a guest in a talkshow,
I like learning, I just don't like school.
Yea, pretty much sums up my situation. Like who at my age watches Discovery and National Geo whenever they sit in front of a cable TV? Or can spend so much time reading Wikipedia infront of the computer at 3am?
Sometimes I wonder if I am preparing myself for some Trivial Nights or something.
Anyway, back to being lost.
Was watching F1 just now (kinda the main reason why I'm still awake now actually) and, I think I'm starting to be relief that I'm not a Grand Prix racer.
It's not because of the huge and horrible crash that Kubica had just now. But once I thought to myself when I saw a driver walking along the paddock with his girlfriend in the morning of the race day, 'if I were the driver I for sure can't concentrate in the race later on'.
I know for sure, even though I've never been in that situation, that just before the race, just before I get into the car, I will be quite emotional and distracted, knowing that that might be the last time I would see my girlfriend/wife/family, whoever is there. And just by thinking up to this point I'm relief that I'm not a racer. Maybe I'll just keep on enjoying those uncompetitive racing I have with my friends. It's fun, and much more safer.
(being random, again)
Thought of quitting university. But everytime I tell my friends that, they'll go,
"Then do what?"
And I don't have an answer for that. Ahhhhhhhhhh!
It's not like my father will ever allow me to drop out of school even if I have a plan on what I wanna do after dropping out.
(being random, again, and again)
I'm starting to like living in Melbourne. It's not because I don't have any restrictions from my family here (I edited the previous sentence from "I'm starting to like the life I have in Melbourne) but I really like the environment here. The weather is good, the people are civilised, the prices are high but it should be alright. Too bad my parents can't speak English, if not I think they've might migrated the whole family here long ago, since like 4 of the 5 children studied in Australian universities for their tertiary education.
(and ending abruptly again, like I always do)
Better go to sleep soon, the sky's turning bright. It's already 6.19am on my laptop now...
Oh, wait. The clock's spoilt again.
The only bad thing about the morning quietness is that I didn't wake up early to enjoy it. I stayed up all through the night. It's already almost 7am.
The period of time between 5 to 7am is the best time for me to be alone. Friends from Melbourne, Malaysia and Singapore are all asleep and I have no distractions from MSN or phone calls asking me out for meals or whatsoever.
(starting to get random)
Actually I'm very lost about what I want in life too. It's times like now that I really hate studying, not like I like it any bit in the first place. But during exams I really hate studying to the core. Heard something like this from Evan Rachel Wood when she was a guest in a talkshow,
I like learning, I just don't like school.
Yea, pretty much sums up my situation. Like who at my age watches Discovery and National Geo whenever they sit in front of a cable TV? Or can spend so much time reading Wikipedia infront of the computer at 3am?
Sometimes I wonder if I am preparing myself for some Trivial Nights or something.
Anyway, back to being lost.
Was watching F1 just now (kinda the main reason why I'm still awake now actually) and, I think I'm starting to be relief that I'm not a Grand Prix racer.
It's not because of the huge and horrible crash that Kubica had just now. But once I thought to myself when I saw a driver walking along the paddock with his girlfriend in the morning of the race day, 'if I were the driver I for sure can't concentrate in the race later on'.
I know for sure, even though I've never been in that situation, that just before the race, just before I get into the car, I will be quite emotional and distracted, knowing that that might be the last time I would see my girlfriend/wife/family, whoever is there. And just by thinking up to this point I'm relief that I'm not a racer. Maybe I'll just keep on enjoying those uncompetitive racing I have with my friends. It's fun, and much more safer.
(being random, again)
Thought of quitting university. But everytime I tell my friends that, they'll go,
"Then do what?"
And I don't have an answer for that. Ahhhhhhhhhh!
It's not like my father will ever allow me to drop out of school even if I have a plan on what I wanna do after dropping out.
(being random, again, and again)
I'm starting to like living in Melbourne. It's not because I don't have any restrictions from my family here (I edited the previous sentence from "I'm starting to like the life I have in Melbourne) but I really like the environment here. The weather is good, the people are civilised, the prices are high but it should be alright. Too bad my parents can't speak English, if not I think they've might migrated the whole family here long ago, since like 4 of the 5 children studied in Australian universities for their tertiary education.
(and ending abruptly again, like I always do)
Better go to sleep soon, the sky's turning bright. It's already 6.19am on my laptop now...
Oh, wait. The clock's spoilt again.
