lesson learnt, not

i think someone up there is giving me a lesson to learn.



for no apparent reason, i went back to my friendster and viewed at my photos taken when i was in trinity. i clearly remember that i used to complain about my acnes problem back then. and this was how i looked.


During Trinity (2005)




4th pic. acting gay with that oh-too-honest-gerald. but that's not the point la. point is, i myself cant even see the problematic skin that i complained about.


then i think that someone up there wanted to punish me for complaining too much. cause last year i looked like this.


2nd Year in University (2007)



i don't know what good deeds i've done to get better (better only la~ still bad. okok. shouldn't complain already) but i should be thankful. cause now, i look like this.





of course la. it's nowhere near perfect but shouldn't be sad over it already mah. i know i dont have the kind of complexion chuanning (the girl in white) has but i think i have to learn to be satisfied with whatever i have now.


which is why, i find it weird, that


i'm complaining that i'm fat.


but really, quite fat whattttttt. i got evidence one ok?! stupid whoever who took this picture when everyone is asleep. why arent you sleeping ar?!


anyway, spot me and you know why i think myself is fat.





hint: i'm pregnant.