lost of words...

chinese was a waste of time... i decided not to say a TOTAL waste of time cause at least i got to learn more about the history of china and few new words... haha... she was apprantly telling stories instead of teaching the words... and one simple sentence construction she can tell us so many theories about completing sentences... zzz

english was still okay... changed seat to the first row... but i still fell asleep today... i think she saw me dozing off... but she don't care about me also... didn't do anything to keep me awake...

a maths test... :S haha... few careless mistakes... then some i don't know how to intergrate... some i made my own laws during the test but ended up making the wrong laws... haha... so did wrongly also... apart from that... i only left two or three questions that i know how to do... haha... chances are that i will fail the test... but i still hope that i will pass... i still made it to a B4 during the midyear anyway~ haha...

rahda was away from school... so we didn't have any teacher to look after us for our remedials... so some of us gamble, some listening to music while doing... and jackson was listening using my discman... saro came in and just said 'this one cannot... i have to confiscate...' confiscate already still say until so nice... -.- anyway me and jackson act that jackson took my discman without me knowing... i think only like this will i get my discman back... so i went to tell saro after lesson... and she said she'll return me after jackson goes and apologise to her tomorrow... hope she keeps her words...

saw me and pearl's daughter going out with a guy at the singapore custom... well they're not going out... the guy was sending her off... haha... held hands some more... see her face guai guai de don't know she also will go steady at such young age... haha...anyway pearl ignore me again once i asked who she likes... lolz... always like this... so bad...

felicia hurt herself... the leg there.... thigh... don't know how... hope can get well soon... don't know want bring her for treatments or not... haha... she will not dare to go also... those treatments so painful... hah... if i bring her she'll also bite me or squeeze me until i cannot bear also... haha...

well... i'm kinda lost today... with/about my feelings... i don't know how to express it... just that... i feel that it's all so wasteful... i waited 3+ years... reaching 4 and my waiting should had come to an end... but end up me having to go to australia next year... probably for 6 years even... like i said in my previous entry... we don't know what will happen... i just don't bear to leave...

i just don't bear to leave...