for the first time ever...

just got back emaths results... was totally pissed off... teacher come in say 'we got 16 A1s... 13 A2s... altogether we have 29 distinction...' i was like... 29... i surely in ba? haha... NO... i think too highly of myself... i knew i din do well... i just thought i was the better half of the class... in the end i got 68... ranked last ten in class... totally moodless... till chinese then i a bit xiang kai... anyway i find tys's past year paper easy huh? lalalaa... maybe when i'm under all the stress and all i'll not do as well again... but... let's just see... i still dropped alot comparing to mid year when i got 80... hmmm... anyway after sch i asked about other classes' results... ok... consolations... i'm not that bad afterall... maybe there's something wrong with my class that suddenly all of them did so well for maths... even a maths...(but not me...) 4/6 had 14 distinctions... 4/8 they said like lesser than ten... 4/9 din ask... but they said a lot fail.. so... it's really my class did well... i did badly too... but not that bad after comparing to other classes... but as i said... it's just something to bring back my morale... there's still many others in s'pore that we've got to compete with... haiz...

and now they want to go for pool tml after sch... wat are they thinking? even though i maybe be tempted and end up going with them in the end... since my progress with my tys is so slow... but... i'll see how la... anyway i'm not pro at pool or wat... and there wun be less fun without me around...

and for the first time ever in my life... i felt like studying for exams... wth... it's a month away... and we studied ten years for it... i onli have this one try... unless i failed so badly that i decided to retake it next year~~~ which is so impossible... :X but... maybe i suddenly feel the competition? kinda stressful... and i'm kinda glad that i onli feel it now... if not i'll be stressed out right from p5 and i won't be wat i am today... i may be just some bookworm who always stick to my books and be indifferent about the things happeneing around me... haha....

anyway... wat's the use of wishing gd luck in getting back results? there's at least still some logic when u wish pple b4 they take the exams... but getting back... we've already done the paper rite? hmm... i just dun understand... but that doesn't mean i dun appreciate it... so... afterall... THANK YOU!!! :X lalalalaa... ok... i haven't got back any of the sciences... but i did the paper... i noe... it's bad... getting back the results is just to see how bad i've done... a b4 will areadly be a bouns for me... that's how bad it is... haha...

poa... really first and last a1... haha...

i used to think that i do things for others... but this time... i dun even noe if it's for my own good...