love is confusing
what is love? ok i shan't explain love cause many people had done so already... and i'm not good with my english... so even if i explain... it may not be a good one...
was thinking about it just now... did i spoil her life? felicia was erm... a normal~ girl... but last year i some how find her cute and wanted to know more about her... so i got a friend to introduce her to me... and all things went well and i tried to make her like me... yeah... that's the fact... I TRIED TO MAKE HER LIKE ME! and things worked so well that she really liked me in the end... now she don't... now she love... haiz...
ok so what do you call a guy who goes around toying with other people's feelings? a bastard... so my friends, don't say that i'm not one... cause i made her like me... like those flirts that you all hate eh? yea... i'm one of them...
so today morning john wanted to find peter from sec3... cause yesterday shi qian asked lip send and john to play gb with this peter... and peter was irritating them... and they of course got irritated since they ain't so nice towards people that they don't know also... esp guys... so john want to beat that guy! wahahaa... but i know he won't la.. with my around... haha... jkjk... so when john went off to find that guy(i only know what happened after john left and i asked the others what happened) i tried to find him.. in case something wrong happen... and there's another reason why i don't want john to beat peter up also... cause peter is the guy vannessa likes mah... and she's felicia good friend... see the link? ya... so i don't anything to happen in case i get guilty about it again... if john wants to go beat one guy not related to me... maybe i'll even join him... haha... jkjk... i'll stop him also la... sec4 le leh... he got one pink form only... don't want him to have another one cause of stupid reasons... so that's the reason why i went to find vanessa after school today... i asked felicia's friends... cause both felicia and vannesa also not with them... i think they expected me to ask for felicia ba... but in the end i asked where's vannessa... all of them was shocked... haha... then was like 'vanne what?' for that moment i thought i pronounced it wrongly... so embarrassed... haha... but then after that i think they just didn't expect me to look for her ba...
anyway... saw felicia twice today... i mean... not from a distance... was quite near... close... after reading her blog then i realise we're ain't that close anymore... ok... it's good in some sense but i do treasure this friendship... but is it ending up like.... we being strangers? haiz... i don't know what to say also...
anyway did duty today... i don't like to do duty on tuesdays... it's not that i mind sweeping the floor... everyone knows i don't mind doing that in school... haha... (had been sweeping the floor for almost the whole year last year) but it's tuesdays! i'm wearing the tie! and then have to sweep... can be quite hot... but i don't have a choice i guess... so i just stick to it... at least i done my job... chemistry was a waste of time... i mean the extra lesson... haiz... i din really learn anything... and i must pass my 'o' chemistry to be able to be enrolled into trinity... the college i have to get in in australia... ya... so i at least have to pass it... if can get B4 better still... cause the requirements for entry is to have 6 passes(excluding both languages) and at least 4 at B4... i'm taking 8 subjects... so i can't fail anyone of them... i have to pass... but after today's session... i kinda scared... haiz...
friday a maths retest... cause i failed... maybe i shall take it seriously now... and pass with flying colours... cause i know how to do it de... just that my attitude wasn't there so i anyhow wrote the intergrate of x and from there the wrong question was wrong... got what i mean? all the questions are linked... and since i was wrong at the first part of the question, all the other parts are wrong... ya... so i think i must at least get my intergrate of x correct before i start to do anything this friday...
maybe... i don't deserve to be loved... maybe i just don't deserve anyone to be mine...
i just derserve to be a lone...
was thinking about it just now... did i spoil her life? felicia was erm... a normal~ girl... but last year i some how find her cute and wanted to know more about her... so i got a friend to introduce her to me... and all things went well and i tried to make her like me... yeah... that's the fact... I TRIED TO MAKE HER LIKE ME! and things worked so well that she really liked me in the end... now she don't... now she love... haiz...
ok so what do you call a guy who goes around toying with other people's feelings? a bastard... so my friends, don't say that i'm not one... cause i made her like me... like those flirts that you all hate eh? yea... i'm one of them...
so today morning john wanted to find peter from sec3... cause yesterday shi qian asked lip send and john to play gb with this peter... and peter was irritating them... and they of course got irritated since they ain't so nice towards people that they don't know also... esp guys... so john want to beat that guy! wahahaa... but i know he won't la.. with my around... haha... jkjk... so when john went off to find that guy(i only know what happened after john left and i asked the others what happened) i tried to find him.. in case something wrong happen... and there's another reason why i don't want john to beat peter up also... cause peter is the guy vannessa likes mah... and she's felicia good friend... see the link? ya... so i don't anything to happen in case i get guilty about it again... if john wants to go beat one guy not related to me... maybe i'll even join him... haha... jkjk... i'll stop him also la... sec4 le leh... he got one pink form only... don't want him to have another one cause of stupid reasons... so that's the reason why i went to find vanessa after school today... i asked felicia's friends... cause both felicia and vannesa also not with them... i think they expected me to ask for felicia ba... but in the end i asked where's vannessa... all of them was shocked... haha... then was like 'vanne what?' for that moment i thought i pronounced it wrongly... so embarrassed... haha... but then after that i think they just didn't expect me to look for her ba...
anyway... saw felicia twice today... i mean... not from a distance... was quite near... close... after reading her blog then i realise we're ain't that close anymore... ok... it's good in some sense but i do treasure this friendship... but is it ending up like.... we being strangers? haiz... i don't know what to say also...
anyway did duty today... i don't like to do duty on tuesdays... it's not that i mind sweeping the floor... everyone knows i don't mind doing that in school... haha... (had been sweeping the floor for almost the whole year last year) but it's tuesdays! i'm wearing the tie! and then have to sweep... can be quite hot... but i don't have a choice i guess... so i just stick to it... at least i done my job... chemistry was a waste of time... i mean the extra lesson... haiz... i din really learn anything... and i must pass my 'o' chemistry to be able to be enrolled into trinity... the college i have to get in in australia... ya... so i at least have to pass it... if can get B4 better still... cause the requirements for entry is to have 6 passes(excluding both languages) and at least 4 at B4... i'm taking 8 subjects... so i can't fail anyone of them... i have to pass... but after today's session... i kinda scared... haiz...
friday a maths retest... cause i failed... maybe i shall take it seriously now... and pass with flying colours... cause i know how to do it de... just that my attitude wasn't there so i anyhow wrote the intergrate of x and from there the wrong question was wrong... got what i mean? all the questions are linked... and since i was wrong at the first part of the question, all the other parts are wrong... ya... so i think i must at least get my intergrate of x correct before i start to do anything this friday...
maybe... i don't deserve to be loved... maybe i just don't deserve anyone to be mine...
i just derserve to be a lone...
